The Rehearsal - Couverture rigide

ONE
 
 
Thursday
‘I can’t do it,’ is what she says. ‘I simply can’t admit students without prior musical training. My teaching methods, Mrs Henderson, are rather more specific than I think you understand.’
 
A jazzy pulse begins, just drums and double bass. She swirls her spoon and taps it once.
 
‘The clarinet is tadpole to the sax, can you see that? The clarinet is a black and silver sperm, and if you love this sperm very much it will one day grow into a saxophone.’
 
She leans forward across the desk. ‘Mrs Henderson. At present your daughter is simply too young. Let me put it this way: a film of soured breast milk clutches at your daughter like a shroud.’
 
Mrs Henderson is looking down, so the saxophone teacher says rather sharply, ‘Do you hear me, with your mouth like a thin scarlet thread and your deflated bosom and your stale mustard blouse?’
 
Mrs Henderson nods imperceptibly. She stops fingering the sleeves of her blouse.
 
‘I require of all my students,’ the saxophone teacher continues, ‘that they are downy and pubescent, pimpled with sullen mistrust, and boiling away with private fury and ardour and uncertainty and gloom. I require that they wait in the corridor for ten minutes at least before each lesson, tenderly nursing their injustices, picking miserably at their own unworthiness as one might finger a scab or caress a scar. If I am to teach your daughter, you darling hopeless and inadequate mother, she must be moody and bewildered and awkward and dissatisfied and wrong. When she realises that her body is a secret, a dark and yawning secret of which she becomes more and more ashamed, come back to me. You must understand me on this point. I cannot teach children.’
 
Kiss-kiss-kiss goes the snare drum over the silence.
 
‘But she wants to learn the saxophone,’ says Mrs Henderson at last, sounding ashamed and sulky at the same time. ‘She doesn’t want to learn the clarinet.’
 
‘I suggest you try the music department at her school,’ the saxophone teacher says.
 
Mrs Henderson sits there for a moment and scowls. Then she crosses her other leg and remembers that she was going to ask a question.
 
‘Do you remember the name and face of every pupil you have ever taught?’
 
The saxophone teacher seems pleased to be asked.
 
‘I remember one face,’ she says. ‘Not one individual student, but the impression left by them all, inverted like a photographic negative and stamped into my memory like an acid hole. I’d recommend Henry Soothill for clarinet,’ she adds, reaching for a card. ‘He’s very good. He plays for the symphony orchestra.’
 
‘All right,’ says Mrs Henderson sullenly, and she takes the card.
 
 
Thursday
That was at four. At five there is another knock. The saxophone teacher opens the door.
 
‘Mrs Winter,’ she says. ‘You’ve come about your daughter. Come in and we’ll discuss carving her into half-hour slices to feed me week by week.’
 
She holds the door wide so Mrs Winter can scuttle in. It’s the same woman as before, just with a different costume—Winter not Henderson. Some other things are different too, because the woman is a professional and she has thought about the role for a long time. Mrs Winter smiles with only half her mouth, for example. Mrs Winter keeps nodding a few seconds too long. Mrs Winter inhales quietly through her teeth when she is thinking.
 
They both politely pretend not to notice that it is the same woman as before.
 
‘To start off with,’ says the saxophone teacher as she hands her a mug of black-leaf tea, ‘I don’t allow parents to sit in on private lessons. I know it’s a bit of an old-fashioned policy—the reason is partly that the students are never at their best in that sort of environment. They become flushed and hot, and they laugh too easily and their posture changes, folding up tight like the lips of a blossom. Partly also, I think, the reason I like to keep things very private is that these little half-hour slices are my chance to watch, and I don’t want to share.’
 
‘I’m not that sort of mother anyway,’ says Mrs Winter. She is looking around her. The studio is on the attic level, and the view is all sparrows and slate. The brick wall behind the piano is chalky, the bricks peeling white as if diseased.
 
‘Let me tell you about the saxophone,’ says the saxophone teacher. There is an alto saxophone on a stand next to the piano. She holds it up like a torch. ‘The saxophone is a wind instrument, which means it is fuelled by your breath. I think it’s interesting that the word for “breath” in Latin is where we get our word “spirit”. People once had the idea that your breath and your soul were the same thing, that to be alive means, merely, to be filled with breath. When you breathe into this instrument, darling, you’re not just giving it life—you’re giving it your life.’
 
Mrs Winter nods vigorously. She keeps nodding a few seconds too long.
 
‘I ask my students,’ the saxophone teacher says, ‘is your life a gift worth giving? Your normal, vanilla-flavoured life, your two-minute noodles after school, your television until ten, your candles on the dresser and facewash on the sink?’ She smiles and shakes her head. ‘Of course it isn’t, and the reason for that is that they simply haven’t suffered enough to be worth listening to.’
 
She smiles kindly at Mrs Winter, sitting with her yellow knees together and clutching her tea in both hands.
 
‘I’m looking forward to teaching your daughter,’ she says. ‘She seemed so wonderfully impressionable.’
 
‘That’s what we think,’ says Mrs Winter quickly.
 
The saxophone teacher observes her for a moment, and then says, ‘Let’s go back to that moment just before you have to refill your lungs, when the saxophone’s full of your breath and you’ve got none left in your own body: the moment when the sax is more alive than you are.
 
‘You and I, Mrs Winter, know what it feels like to hold a life in our hands. I don’t mean ordinary responsibility, like babysitting or watching the stove or waiting for the lights when you cross the road—I mean somebody’s life like a china vase in your hand—’ she holds her saxophone aloft, her palm underneath the bell ‘—and if you wanted to, you could just . . . let go.’
 
 
Thursday
On the corridor wall is a framed black-and-white photograph which shows a man retreating up a short flight of stairs, hunched and overcoated, his chin down and his collar up and the laces on his boots coming untied. You can’t see his face or his hands, just the back of his overcoat and half a sole and a grey sock sliver and the top of his head. On to the wall beside the staircase the man casts a bent accordion shadow. If you look closer at the shadow you will see that he is playing a saxophone as he ascends the stairs, but his body is hunched over the instrument and his elbows are close in to the sides of his body so no part of the sax is visible from behind. The shadow peels off to one side like an enemy, forking the image in two and betraying the saxophone that is hidden under his coat. The shadow-saxophone looks a little like a hookah pipe, dark and wispy and distorted on the brick wall and curving into his chin and into his dark and wispy shadow-hands like smoke.
 
The girls who sit in this corridor before their music lessons regard this photograph while they wait.
 
 
Friday
Isolde falters after the first six bars.
 
‘I haven’t practised,’ she says at once. ‘I have got an excuse, though. Do you want to hear it?’
 
The saxophone teacher looks at her and sips her black-leaf tea. Excuses are almost her favourite part.
 
Isolde takes a moment to smooth her kilt and prepare. She draws a breath.
 
‘I was watching TV last night,’ she says, ‘and Dad comes in with his face all serious and his fingers sort of picking at his tie like it’s strangling him, and eventually he just takes it off and lays it to one side—’
 
She unhooks her saxophone from her neckstrap and places it upon a chair, miming loosening the neckstrap as if it has been very tight.
 
‘—and says sit down, even though I’m already sitting down, and then rubs his hands together really hard.’
 
She rubs her hands together really hard.
 
‘He says, your mother thinks that I shouldn’t tell you this just yet, but your sister has been abused by one of the teachers at school.’ She darts a look at the saxophone teacher now, quickly, and then looks away. ‘And then he says “sexually”, just to clarify, in case I thought the teacher had yelled at her at a traffic light or something.’
 
The overhead lights have dimmed and she is lit only by a pale flicking blue, a frosty sparkle like the on–off glow of a TV screen. The saxophone teacher is thrust into shadow so half her face is iron grey and the other half is pale and glinting.
 
‘So he starts talking in this weird tight little voice about this Mr Saladin or whatever, and how he teaches senior jazz band and orchestra and senior jazz ensemble, all on Wednesday morning one after the other. I won’t have him till sixth form...

"A wonderful debut by a truly exciting new writer — The Rehearsal is compulsively good and while at the same time being immensely readable it also continually calls into question the relationship between so-called 'reality' and fiction, and the very nature of truth itself."
— Kate Atkinson

"This astonishing debut novel from Eleanor Catton is a cause for surprise and celebration: smart, playful and self-possessed, it has the glitter and mystery of the true literary original."
— The Guardian

"Eleanor Catton has not only shaken the bars but broken through."
— Glasgow Sunday Herald

"A book as brainy as The Rehearsal usually doesn’t have the emotional heft to match its smarts. But New Zealander Eleanor Catton’s debut novel – I can’t believe it’s her first book – will make you gasp, think, laugh, wonder and then weep. . . . I haven’t been this impressed with a debut fiction writer since Ann-Marie MacDonald released Fall On Your Knees. This year’s must-read."
— NOW magazine (5 "N" review)

“A bravura performance. . . . As wickedly provocative as it is elaborately crafted. . . . [A] sensational novel. There is nothing ordinary about it.” 
— Toronto Star
 
“Imagine Sue Sylvester’s lines from ‘Glee’ delivered by Judi Dench and you’ll begin to capture the tone taken by the teachers in this mordant debut novel.”
— New York Times
 
“The Rehearsal is something completely different. It’s almost impossible to classify. The closest comparison might be Special Topics in Calamity Physics, by Marisha Pessl, or even The Secret History, by Donna Tartt, but The Rehearsal stands alone. . . . Eleanor Catton has begun on a very high note. I have a feeling she’ll sustain it.”
— Globe and Mail
 
“A tour de force. . . . The combination of beautiful writing and inventive, nontraditional structure . . . make it a dazzling debut.” 
— Booklist (starred review)